Since flipping my Xterra on its top much has changed for me personally. I've gotten caught in the hustle tryin to figure things out and not stopped to post anything on here. I've had many things change from m previous situation but yet have taken much time to stop. To stop and breathe. To stop and listen. To stop and think. Its been trying to sort out the Hype and hustle to make ends meet.
When I last posted I was living in a cabin between Boulder and Marbleton, WY near the New Fork River. It was -10 to -30 degrees most nights and my pipes were frozen in my little cabin. I was forced to take a cooler and go out to a well runoff pipe and collect water that felt like if it slowed it would freeze in order to shower. I would take the 32degree water in and pour it in to my electric skillet to boil it so that I could have some warm water to shower off with. I didn't have a stove and my microwave had just went out during the work week so I didn't have time to go buy a new one. It took 2hrs to boil enough water so that I could clean off a bit and go to bed.
The flow of mice in to the cabin had ceased and I guess the water felt left out to decided to join in. Then I rolled my Xterra and that made life just a bit more challenging. I got done with work the evening of the 22nd and got a plane to Kansas City to make it home for Christmas thanks to my parents offering much assistance with making the arrangements. I drove 20min to a gas station that had wireless so these circumstances made this very inconvenient. I didn't have a TV either...not that a TV would have helped at all but there wasn't lots of extra frills and they were getting less and less.
I was wondering about my time in Wyoming and felt like there were becoming fewer and fewer reasons to stay. I missed being around community with other bothers and sisters of which I had pretty much NONE of. So as I prayed about the struggle I flew to visit my family for Christmas. I was off 3 weeks and had time to prioritize a bit. I was going to go back to Wyoming work if they were working then pack up and move back to Kansas. In the meantime I needed to find a vehicle. God provided and I headed back to Wyoming to work a few days and pack up.
As I left Wyoming I sent an email out to friends and family who have supported and prayed for my as God has opened up opportunities to do ministry here and overseas. I shared a brief story about Christ Academy, a school we served at in Kenya in 2007 and then a bit about the impending changes and said I am flexible. That evening I received a call telling me there was a group in Rock Springs that had been meeting discussing how they could have me come share about Christ Academy again. When they went home and checked their email they found that a few of them had received an email from me opening the opportunity. Feb 8th Jessie Hock, Brady Peters and myself drove to Rock Springs, WY to share at a small church of 40 or so.
I had been praying about going back to Kenya as Porfirio had left on Jan 16th and Jessie and Jennifer Follis were planning on going at the end of Feb. I told only 3 people that I was stepping in faith to go to Kenya. Two of those people were Brady and Jessie the other was at the church we shared at. We got done sharing about the school and I was informed that $584 was given toward the school and $2010 toward me going to Kenya. I could not believe it! I was stunned. Prayer ANSWERED! I called my parents and Porfirio to tell them I was on my way to Kenya.
Four weeks prior I could have told you I was very content with not going to Kenya right now and that I was going to need a miracle to go. I guess I got what I prayed for.
Once again I was looking to return to Kansas because I wanted to remain in community knowing brothers and sisters in Christ, them knowing me and living life together.
I came back to Hays, KS and found myself staying in a spare room(laundry room) on an air mattress. Not exactly in the lap of luxury. I had quit my job in Wyoming and still was searching for something around here. I was again finding community but without a job. A price to pay? I don't know. The hype, the hustle that misses what God has for us is not worth it. To run a race on my own is not why I was created. I was created to live among others, with others and share the journey. The hype, the hustle...its overrated.
When you have lost something or taken away is when you most often realize what you had. I realized this and had to figure out a different way to live because my priorities were not what I want them to be.
Until Dukey Drops Again....Much Love
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